Absolute; Precede; Blip; Cabal (n))Paper; Asomatous (adj.)) Having no material body.); Hum; Stand; Above; Item; Opaque; Fremdschämen (v)) To feel ashamed about something someone else has done. )
The mother wore Fremdschämen
Like a locket beneath her blouse…
Unholy item, yet somehow sacred, an
Amulet warm against her opaque heart
Which—cut by her perfect hand from heavy
Paper mysterious—made no hum, nor recorded a
Blip as she coldly stepped around, removed
From, her daughter—first-born child.
What shame had the girl brought on her?
Life-long enigma, this (held in confidence
Reserved only for the girl’s brother, the prince
Who looked to be his sister’s twin); though not
A figment of her imagination. It was as
Absolute as the mother’s stone visage, had
Perhaps preceded the girl’s birth…how would she
Know? But she felt its substance, an asomatous
Hatred standing above her every moment, waiting
For merest opportunity to demean, humiliate,
Castigate her with fearsome angry words which
Rang like razor-sharp clawed blows, stripping
The skin from small nebulous soul.
Time passed, the inexplicable cruelty grew
Heads and limbs, a monstrous entity which
Formed a shunning cabal—mother and
Siblings communicating secret looks—
From which the girl was silently excluded.
So it would remain…this unexplained, and wordless
Mutual agreement—banishment to tundra.
Death claimed the mother, who bequeathed
The girl nothing…not one lone loving,
Or last remorseful, thought.
By then, the girl’s center had iced over—
Tears of wounding, grief, buried beneath
Decades of hard-packed snow, hoarfrost…
Incapable of loving, she wore the
Mother’s hand-me-down frowning rime.
©Jael Sook, 2017 All rights reserved.
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